Sunday, November 09, 2008
i dont know why i never remembered having the gift of knowing how to love, with anyone. what does it take? a trust i've never given - something to regret?
maybe it's too much to think about
'housing all this doubt and insecurity'
'given up, on giving up slowly'
lol(needed some word here to not make the post sound so g@y) heh just need to pen down thoughts sometimes! :p k i think this just made the post even more gay
Sunday, August 03, 2008
handwriting personality testtt
Ryan uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually inexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.
The circumstances when Ryan does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.
Ryan will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.
Ryan is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Ryan doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Ryan will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Ryan believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.
Ryan is secretive. He has secrets which he does not wish to share with others. He intentionally conceals things about himself. He has a private side that he intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in his past.
In reference to Ryan's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Ryan slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.
He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Ryan can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Ryan is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Ryan basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence category, his self-perception is better than average.
Ryan has a tendency to put things off, Ryan procrastinates. He sometimes pretends to be busy, so he will not have to do whatever he is putting off. He is often late to appointments or deadlines. This usually leads to a great amount of effort at the last minute to meet the deadline. Procrastination is an important factor as it relates to his output on the job or at school. Remember, Ryan will put it off until later. Procrastination is easily overcome through a simple stroke adjustment in the handwriting.
Ryan has difficulty trusting anyone. In fact, he trusts no one completely. This is a result of his trust being betrayed in the past. He has closed up, thus ceasing to allow close friendships. Ryan truly wants close friends and desires physical relationships, but he fears he will get hurt, again. He is lonely, yet has a crying need for close friends. This trait can cause much unhappiness. However, it can be changed.
95% accurate? hehe the things written kinda general though soo no big deal ._.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
lol like wow??? i didnt know..everything is just whether i 'bother' anot... so all this time its just a matter of whether im gona talk each day...really..wow...
sure sure a 'i bother' is easy to say heh i hear it all the time. damnit disappointed haha idk why i bother
iiiiii feeeeeeel like a girl lol gay blog ranting :p
Saturday, July 05, 2008
i'm starting to feel everything has just been bullshit/meaningless words again :( how?
everything's just wordsss, no show/meaningg
Sunday, June 29, 2008
drinking coconut juiceee
hm usher and service was gooood
bb heh first no emo post in long long time hi
http://www.myspace.com/goldenstatetheband
Monday, June 23, 2008
ah guess i've ran out of words to explain myself already loll.. i don't think i even know what to think about anymore...what i want and stuff haha where am i driving at? oh well guess i kinda feel loost right now Oo heh k this is becoming emo ground
hm days been okay? haha still getting used to school life....sian sian ._. lol. hmm i wonder what happened to my crap blogging and stuff haha this is becoming like some cemetry ground shit zzz -.- i want lifee in here againnnnnn....maybe just for a few minute tho :x
kbye emo cemetry ground with many many meaningless emo posts
Sunday, June 08, 2008
ah stuff stuff stuff happening all over the place :/ goota learn to take shit growing up and into the real world. hm sometimes i wonder why i'm so emotional for a guy its so gayshiet. i feel stuff when it's nothing at all and no one feels a thing. ah...all along i was just hoping i could have someone that'd listen to me when im going through shit and...idk to care for? maybe i'm asking for too muchh man, could be that these kinda people/relationships only appear on tv. hm but guess i'm not alone since there are guys like that too haha confusing crap
ah just wanted someone to talk to but no one would listen? everyone's always faking their real character lol thanks bloggieee i feel gayer now that i've bloggedddd